love letter day 5 -- "friend"

dear friend...



maybe you aren't person who parting my heart..but still you have ur special place inside and it's irreplacable...
and i don't want to lie any more with u..so i decided to write this letter...
this is first letter which i made on purpose...

i wanna tell you that i'm tired...
it's not your fault..neither me..if you never here for me everytime i need..
it's not your fault too to be a busy girl and i'm not...everything has it's own time...
maybe next term we'll not contact each other...maybe 1 years from now i'll not have a time even just for reply your message..maybe you'll do the same...
so i'm try to understand..

but sometimes it makes me tired..
sometimes i just need a quality time to share with my friend...
sometimes i just need a minute to know how's there..
are u alright...is there something wrong...do you have any story to share...
sometimes i feel u lost..and ask my self..
am i really2 still have a friend name " . . . . . "???

when we finally meet,the gap between one gathering and one gathering makes everything looks empty...
i don't know what to say..
i don't know what you want me to share...
i don't know what you'll like to hear...
i don't know what gossip around you...
sometimes it feels like i meet with someone from other planet..other life...
i feel not recognize the girl who stand up in front of me...
yes i know it's you..we have many photos rite..
yes i know thats your name...it's written in my phone's book..
but you..
yes you..
you who ever talk to me for more than 2 hours..
you who ever spent the nite to do ur task together...
you who ever hear my stories and cried for me...
i don't recognize it anymore...

where are you?
where's that girl?
where's my old friend??

i really don't want you to give me ur precious hour just to talk with me..
i know how busy you are...
i don't need it..
i need someone who care with me...
not the one who contact me when i contact her first...
how if i'm die...
sudden heart attack..and i can't contact you..
will you know?
will you care..?

buddy...
"real friend is not the one who come first..
but the one who still stay"

it's not my quote...i steal it from google..
but i feel sometimes it's like mine...

when will you notice?
when will you know?
i'm tired to wait..


regards,
ur friend