october wish

well...oktober memang udah berlalu seminggu, tp berhubung this is my special month, gw teteup menuliskan wish gw..kali2 aj gt ad yg terketuk hatinya untuk mengabulkan wish2 saiia...hihihi.. *senyum maksud



1. i wanna go to holiday
why? soalnya gw baru sadar gw gk dapet liburan sampe sekarang..
gw mati2an belajar SOCA 2 bulan n gw gk lulus, jd rencana liburan gw ancur seketika... (masi nyesek klw diinget2 sampe sekarang >.<'v)
n pas gw akhirnya bs balik ke rumah, gw malah dihantui sm LPJ yang menumpuk wajib edit smp tw2 udah senin aja, lgs masuk KKD dan gw baru sadar waktu anak2 lain ngomongin holiday nya, gw bahkan gk punya sedetik pun bwt ngerjain hobi gw..baca buku, nulis karangan, gambar2...
how sad i am... :(
jujur gw jenuh n capek sm semua ini..gw bener2 gk dapet waktu bwt refresh sama sekali pasca SOCA...seems unfair but yah..thats my fault cz didn't pass so...what to say?
but really God..i wanna holiday... :'(


2. i wanna meet kar
beda sama 'i wanna holiday' soalnya klw holiday bs kemana aja, sedangkan 'meet kar' gk msk ke holiday...itu keinginan gw dari dulu..yg gk pernah kesampean... :(
pas gw gk lulus, gw mohon2 bgd kar bs dtg ke Grogol n nghibur gw..say something..just hug me..let me cry...comfort me..
tapi hari itu dia pulang ke malang...
n it's really hurt me..i can't meet her...
entah sampai kapan..tahun depan kah? kapan? gw osce..kar sidang skripsi...
then when? :'(
is that this hard to just meet with ur bestie? :'(
pernah suatu hari seseorang yg gw benci bilang gn ke gw "halah, lo bilang lo mau ngelindungin kar? mana? kapan lo ke malang? ga pernah jadi aja! "
sakit hati gw men..sakit...
gw gk bs ngmng apa2..cz that fucking bastard right...
i don't have time..when i have, i don't have money...or when i have both of them, my parents didn't allow me...
and when i have three of them, God didin't allow me...
tau artinya nyesek? yang kaya gini...
gw cerita ke kar..gw gk pake icon nangis padahal gw lg nangis..gw cm bilang gw sedih that bastard said like that to me..that bastard didn't even know how i miss kar..that bastard know NOTHING!
n kar bilang "gpp..aq ngerti kok..klw ada waktu pasti nyo kesini...sudah ya..jangan nangis.."
gw speechless.. "kok tau aku nangis..? "
kar: "tau lah.."

makin kangen kar, Tuhan... :""(



3. i wish someone die
sounds cruel...?
nope..if you know how faker n liar he is...
all of his words is LIE...!
oh please..just go to the hell...
gw gk pernah membenci orang sampai berdoa orang itu mati..
but this is the only exception..
in all months, in all years..in all prays..
i wish he die...


4. i wanna photo album!
gw suka nyetak foto di hp gw sejak gw punya pengalaman buruk dengan service menservice hp yg menghapus semua datanya..sejak itu gw punya kebiasaan bwt nyetak foto2 yg menurut gw worthed..temen2 yg deket sm gw..hal2 sederhana yg menurut gw worthed bwt di kenang..
thats too much photos...!
tapi gw gk punya album nya..huhuw...
pengen nya c punya album foto yg gede ky album foto keluarga gw d rumah atau album yg gw kasi ke aqsha for a gift, or maybe unique album for agan's birthday gift...haha.. *ngarep


5. i wanna snake
yeah gw tw gw sekarang KKD n makin sibuk..gw tw 1 semester lagi gw bakal mobile dan ntah siapa yg bakal miara hewan2 peliharaan gw..n jelas orang rumah fobia semua sm ular, terutama nyokap..
i know that..
but i still crave about them..hehe..
gw pengen ular..yg kecil aja..biar ngasi makannya gk ribet...n klw bs c udah terlatih makan sesuatu yg gk idup, biar gw tinggal ngelemparin ikan atau ayam ke kandangnya...haha.. *ngarep
mw ball phyton..gedenya pas..jinak..n kyanya enak bwt nemenin tdr secara diameter dy selengan gw n panjangnya 1 meter..ngebayangin dy berguling malas d kamar gw atau cm ngball d meja sementara gw mainin laptop..
pemandangan yg keren khn? :p


6. i wanna my friends
gw pengen pas gw bday temen2 gw ngumpul smw..terutama yg deket2..gw pengen mereka ada d samping gw, ngerasain kebahagiaan yg gw rasain..
terutama temen2 yg udah lama gk ketemu..ky disco..squally...riri...pan - meg...
n temen2 kuliah yg sekarang makin jarang ketemu n makin jarang jalan bareng gr2 jadwal KKD yg alamak padatnya..huhuw...


7. i want my fams
siapa c yg gk pengen keluarganya ada pas dia ulang tahun..? haha...
ini permohonan wajar dr seorang yang mau bday khn... ^^v


8. i wanna BF
hahaha..stupid wishes which won't ever be true... :p



9. i want FAY
yaaaak!!!!!!! fay! fay! fay!!! still craving of fay! hahahaha...
*wild imagination*


10. i want health
gw pengen sembuh..dr bipolar gw..dr anxiety disorder gw...
amiiin...


11. i want squal..xixi..
saking lamanya gk ketemu squal (after 5 YEARS) finally bs ketemu...jd pengen ketemu lagiii..haha...
c'on squally...u must come to my special day :p


12. i want kar remember my bday
empty wish..gw tw dy pelupa..gw sms dia malem aja kadang2 gk d bales paginya karna dia lupa bales...padahal dia buka hp waktu bangun tdr.. =.='a


13. i want all that sequel books
gw tuh suka banget beli buku tp gk beli sequelnya, sampe akhirnya pas gw inget, sequel nya udah langka atau entah ada dimana.. T.Tv
rasanya gk srek banget beli buku cm nomer 1 nya doang terus ngegantung..gk ketauan lanjutannya ky gmn..
zzz..krik..krik...



14. i wanna something classic, elegant, artistic, sweet, dark..and memorable cz handmade.. ^^
u know what the key to be my ideal bday gift?
it must be like that! hahaha...
gw suka sesuatu yg klasik..like a gold with a lace, or a jewelry...but it must be artistic cz i'm unique and i love something unique..i'm sweet and girly..you know my style..but yeah, i'm not a good girl one..i'm bad...thats why dark things sometimes suit me...
and memorable thing will really2 touch me, especially when it's handmade..hehe..
wanna have an example gift i love?
disco's frame photo...unique, artistic, memorable, handmade, and classic..and somehow elegant..
fifi's lollipop...memorable, unique, handmade...so touchfull..
thanks guys..i do love you all... :)


15. i wanna something artistic
as i mention above, gw suka sesuatu yg artistik...like all of libras in the world, gw suka art, n semua benda yg artistik atau membuat gw bs mengembangkan bakat art gw, i'll take it with honour.. :)




i think i'll sleep...we'll continue this list another time..hehehe...
don't worry...
there's so much things in the world which i want.. ;p