stop judging me...!

None will understand..
Why i easy to sad..
Guys,it's not what i want..swear it..
I wanna live normal like y'all..

Will u understand..
How the feeling of badmood 3 weeks long?
How to feel alone all the time..?
How to cry just bcs hear rain's sound..
Or see fallen leave..?
Even walk in cloudy day can make me cry..
And mellow song can be a great enemy in playlist when exam day come..

Will u understand?
How to feel the fear that everything u precious will suddenly dissapear?
How to start ur day with very sad feeling in ur chest
N u can't say anything cz none can't understand "just sad" as a reason..
How the feeling of see ur score decreased day by day
n u can't do anything cz u even barely keep a mood to study..

How u dissapointed people who understand u..
Hurt them..
Make them tired..
With all of this crap fluctuation...
Will u understand this?

Do u think u can have my life?
The life which make u feel sad without reason..
Make u cry without u want..
Make u feel desperate 24 hr a day...
Tired..
Fear..
Pathetic..
Stupid..
Nothing..
For at least 2 weeks...
Can u?

None will understand...
So please,stop judging me...