nitemare before LMT.. >.<'

well, spt janji gw sebelumnya, ni etiologi kenapa gw bs jd mengantuk bin ngzong akut smp harus cabut farmako..



Mlm sblm LMT it nth knp gw bnr2 lg kacau2 nya dunia..kyny tu smw kntrol emosi n akal sehat ilang lenyap nth kmn..gw jg g ngrti knp..
Tb2 ja sore2 gw bad mud parah..trz gw mlh sms anh2 k kar..ngmgn hal2 gk ptg yg bkn dy cm bls tu sms dgn icon eswete..

N bz it gw ngzong..

Bnr2 ngzong..seakan2 smw hal d kuras radikal dr kpla gw..
Gw tw gw gk blh lgs tdr..scr gw lm packing LMT..lm nyri dsksi..lm ngpa2in..kmr gw msi brntakan..tp yg ad d pkran gw cm "bodoh..gw dh mengakui smw dosa gw k org lain..k seseorg..God damn..it can't b happen!!!"

N tw2 gw dh ngmbl hp gw n nlp panda dgn histeris..nyaris teriak2 btpa gw merasa bego n khlgan kndali diri..panda yg tdny dh mw ngrjain tgs akhrny dgrn jrt2an gw..mpe akhrny gw bnr2 nglpas tu kntrol dri n crt k panda hal yg dh gw smbnyiin sejak..oh God..sejak lma bgd...sejak gw blm tw it apa mpe gw ngrti it seswt yg salah..

Well..n stlh smwny gw muntahin,c panda cm bs speechless (dy blg dy d taraf shock stage 2 - 3..hahai )
Wew..actually..
so do i..
How can this happen???

Gw hdp dlm pngndalian smpurna..i nvr let my self out of cntrol..cz i knw it'll b a kind of histerical reaction or what if i lose my self cntrol..it's like a pressure 2 b prfct u knw..then i tried to handle that pressure wth my self cntrol..if it lose,it'll b sme kind of explotion..like that terrific nite..
I never let my self cry in frnt of other xcpt kar..nvr let my self tell other my true feeling xcept kar n pan..nvr let other knw evrythng bout me..
Then that day suddenly i told how disgusting i am bout my self..
It's really2..
Weird..
Felt so naked u knw..weird..

N ujg2ny stlh panda bs nenangn gw (yg suarany makin tnggi 1 oktaf pas serangan histeria it),b'ending dgn cucong brtbran aer mata dr gw..oh damn..i let my self cried in phne wth panda..i told u..it nvr happend b4..i'm really2 lost cntrol..

Bysny,klw panda blg "gw lg byk tgs nes",gw bkl blg "oh..okok..mv gnggu yk.." n gw pst ntp tlp nya..
Tp kmrn akal sehat gw ntah lg maraton d mn..gw ttp ja dgn egoisny cucong k panda..klw d ingt2 lg tu jahat bgd..n sumpah gw pgn blg d blog ni,k seluruh dunia,gw syg ma shbt gw yg atu it krn dy rela bgd dgrin cucongan gw yg g ptg..sabar bgd ngyakinin gw ttg hal2 yg slalu gw pertnykan..hal2 yg slalu pgn gw tnykan k dy n kar tp gk prnh trucap cz gw tkt mrk bkl ninggalin gw klw gw tny..(mgkn sbnrny gw cm tkt dgr jwbnny..haha..)
Tp jwbn pan ma kar prsis sma..n gw g bs ngapa2in slain diem,speechless,n ngs nth krn ngrasa tolol atw lega pas dgr jwbn mrk..
Apapun it,gw cm bs blg gw syg mrk b2..sngt2 syg.. T^Tb

Akhrny gr2 gw,panda br ngrjain tgsny jm 1 mlm bz gw bnr2 tng..
N gr2 gw jg tgs panda jd kacau balau..
Tp bz dy dgn emos ngasi tw gw (c suspect utama pngrusakan nlai nya) tu knytaan mnyktkan,dy cm blg "ywdlh..gw g mrh..mw d gmnain lg?klw nilai gw jelek it brarti gw krg bljr"..

Gw berasa flsh bck aj k kejadian 6 taun lalu..wkt panda jd suspect pgrusakan nilai sejarah gw n gw ngamuk2 parah..

2 org yg sma,2 mslh brtema sama,dgn tindakan yg sm sX b'bd..
Panda lbh mlh mkr "yswlh..mw gmn lg.." n g memprmslhkan soal it lg..sdgkn gw jdiin it dndam turun temurun 7 generasi..
Hdp it adl plhan..pan bs aj milih bwt teriak2 d tlp ky gw dlu..tp dy g mlakukanny..

Hdp it plhan..

N jg pelajaran bg gw u/ belajar memaafkan spt jg gw d maafkan..

Lw selalu bs belajar n bercermin dr shbt2 lw..
In this case,although my best friends aren't famous..although they are just an ordinary person like me and u,they've teach me so much precious thngs..
Gw bkn org baik yg pnts dpt kbrtgan spt ni..kdg2 wkt gw mkr Tuhan g adil trz gw ingt gw pny shbt ky mrk,gw sadar it gk bnr.. ^^



smp sekarang klw gw inget2 lagi soal kebodohan gw saat itu, kdg gw nyesel juga..
tapi spt kata bijak di sebuah quote:

"friend is the one who know everything bout u n still love with u whoever u are..."

n as they love me whoever i am..
so do i... ^^